So the other day i was looking at my list of goals I want to accomplish in my life. Among them is my goal to be pretty fluent in spanish by the time I graduate from college. As it is so easily to put some goals aside, i learned yesterday that I want this goal so much more.
Shopping with my mom at Ross, I walked up and down the aisle to see if I wanted to try anything else on. As I turned towards the way to the check out, I saw a little girl about to cry, yelling "mami mami!." As i turned towards her, I heard her cry out with tears, " donde?" I froze. Oh no, she speaks spanish, I thought. I bent down and held out my hand. She took it and I immediately led her down to where the fitting rooms were to get some assistance.
Apparently Ross has no "missing child code blue" or whatever in place, so they stared at me blankly when I told them that this little girl was looking for her mom. "What is your name?" she asked the girl. She stared at the older woman blankly as I told her that she spoke spanish. As the employee and my mom were figuring out how to talk to her, I frantically searched my brain for answers. You have to at least know how to ask her name in Spanish! Four years of Spanish and 11 days working with a Spanish church and you can't remember how to ask for a name? Shame on you! Nombre? Ella? something with "la" at the end, right? The employee beat me to it. Her name was Brenda she replied. As words slowly came back to me, I began talking a little with the girl, pointing and smiling at toys she liked and using adjetives such as " favoritie, pink, pretty." Although I was frustrated with myself, I was happy to have gained confidence and have her look at me as I was trying to speak another language.
As one of the employee's announced Brenda's mom's name on the loudspeaker which I got out of her, I continued to watch and talk with her in the toy aisle. Thankfully, a spanish speaking women came over to me as the fuss was going around about a child missing a mom. She asked Brenda again what her mom's name was and gotten the same response we all had, "Dina". Finally, Brenda's dad came along 2 seconds later, saying in spanish to the women how he had let his daughter go play with the toys while they shopped. Some parents are so stupid.
I learned a lot in that hour. Number one: I want to be fluent in spanish..I was obviously jealous of that lady (well, she was of Mexican decent I think) who was able to speak to her in Spanish. I want to be able to help people out..even little kids. I want to not freeze up when a situation like that happens. I have had whole conversations in spanish..and I could not remember how to say "what is your name?" in spanish. That embarasses me. Number two: I want to stick to my goal. I honestly want to keep on reviewing my notes, doing spanish activities online, and even watching movies in spanish with subtitles (Finding Nemo is going to be my first one!). Number three: I will never leave my kid unattended in any store. She was scared out of her mind.
As I walked down to the check out, I passed Brenda who caught my eye and said something in Spanish like, "Look, I found her!" I gave a smile and replied, "Bien!" Even though I am not fluent in Spanish yet, I'm so happy that I was able to offer my hand to her and do what I could to help her out. SEeing Brenda for the last time with her looking out her black SUV window smiling at me made me want to accomplish my goal now more than ever. I want to go back to Nicaragua and go talk with all of my friends in Nicaragua in their native language and be able to help people that do not speak English that well. Mark my words babble blog, I'm going to complete it.